Memory loss....

The Dr told me I might have some memory loss from the chemo treatments. I guess it may be from the new cells that are destroyed during chemo. I have notice little things being forgotten, and figured that was all I had to worry about.

Today in a conversation with Pauli, she needed a address that was on Jodie's Wedding invitations, asked if I had it. I could not remember what Jodie's Wedding invitations looked like, or where I might have put them. I didn't remember sending them out, even though there were over a hundred of them.

Jodie and Will's Wedding was last Oct. Just three months ago.... during my treatment.

It left me shaking for hours. I Never thought I could ever forget something concerning my kids. Because I love them so deeply.....That was scary...

Found the hairdryer....

I dug out my hairdryer, found a small round brush. Washed my hair, found some hair gel. Took some time to see what would happen with this short 1 1/2 inch hair.

To my surprise it looked pretty good. I see that it has some possibility. Its real short and Gray. The chemo has changed the color of my hair, but I think I might like it.

Today is Monday, which is Card playing day with a group of ladies. I left my house for the first time with no hat or wig....

and it snowed...

My Jewels...

I was asked to list my Jewels, so here they are:

Launie Michelle...1966

David Lynn........1968

Eugene Murvel.....1971--1975

Jennifer Elaine...1976

Carolyn Paulette..1980

Jodie Margaret....1983

New Year, and New Hair...

Its January of a New Year 2012. Its hard to believe its been almost a year since I realized that I had Cancer, and a year of illness begin. I have been through alot this last year. The strangest was to look in the mirror and see a bald head, no eyebrows or eyelashes. One looks real strange and scary with out the things that make you look like you.

My hair has been growing in. I was told that Chemo could change the color of my hair, and it did. I have always had brown hair, about a medium brown, with a little touch of red.

My hair is growing in Black, with lots of Gray. It feels like fur and is about one and half inches in length. To look in the mirror, It look like straight mouse gray fur.

So we shall see what happens.


Jodie mentioned last night, that on the 28th of this month, she will be working full time at the Dr. Office in Provo.

Pauli and James' baby boy is due in April. Pauli received her Black belt in Karita, being five months preg. She knocked the socks right off those guys.

Christmas...

Christmas is just a few days away, realizing the end of the year is so near caused me to reflect on how close I have felt the Spirit of the Lord or the Holy Ghost, or Angles working in my be half this whole year.
Yes I have had an extremely hard time, but I was lifted up spiritually all the way. I have had such a closeness with the spiritual side all year, that I want to feel that way all the time in my life. I know life does not end here on earth, It goes on, We are just away at collage, learning, and choosing the Lords teachings So we can become as he is.
I don't know how I can keep this deep closeness with the Lord, by myself. I have had many Priesthood blessings, and my name put on the Prayer rolls in the Temple. Folks in my ward, and family prayed for me. I have felt all that, and I have been reading about Jesus life through the scriptures. I have never felt such a closeness, and love. I don't want the feeling to ever go away.

Christmas....A time to celebrate the birth of a baby boy.... Gods own son.
Christmas is a time we should take in our own way to show how happy we are for His life. To be connected in some way in the celebration of this historic event.
There is not a greater reason to be happy, for he gave us our lives.

The small things we can do, follows His example, and teachings. One time out of the whole year, people stop and celebrate Christmas. They may not remember why, but we do....That's why Christmas makes us feel so good inside.

If you don't know who Jesus really is, then study about him and his life, and Pray...

Bishop Grua's New Calling....

I asked for a Priesthood Blessing today, because my skin where I had received radiation, needed some help healing, and I received two...
Lynn invited Bishop Grua, Bro. Rilley and his son, to come over to give me a blessing.

As I walked into the front room where Lynn and Bishop Grua were, Lynn said he wanted to introduce me to our new Patriarch. What a wonder feeling, and a Wonderful calling for a person who, I know lives so close to the Lord. To be in his presence as he prays is such a spiritual treat. Bishop Grua had such a warm glow all around him. I am so happy for both Bishop Grua and Marilyn, this new calling will be a great blessing for them, in their lives, and for their family.

Bro. Rilley, Our Home Teacher, gave me the most wonderful Priesthood Blessing, in helping my body heal. I need a extra boast for help.

I also noticed the special spiritual feeling, that had been my constant companion, had returned during this special time.

Done...Whats Next?....

My Radiation therapy ended today. I am cooked! My skin at my neck seems to be the worse, It is turning purple in color. It burns and itches badly, and the skin wants to come off. I am keeping it medicated as instructed. Its surprising how invisible rays can cause this much damage, and it was under control. They have been using a Bollis pack on me every other day during radiation. A Bollis is a gel pack. About fifteen inches in length, and about twelve inches wide, filled with thick, unmovable gel, about half inch thick.

Mark explained that the Bollis is used during radiation to cause the radiation to come to the surface, or just under the skin where they need it to be. He also said that I was the first person at this hospital, to go through all the Bollis treatments. Most folks skin is so sensitive that they complete only half of the Bollis therapy.

Well... I am done with this stage of therapy,.....So...Whats Next????....

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Mark has a book that his father had given him, that his Grandfather had written. It was about the life of his Great Grandfather, who was a pioneer with the hand cart company.

While being displayed the book fell and was damaged. Mark had a interest as I spoke of Pauli making Books, The old fashioned sewing by hand method. Mark will contact Pauli and see if she or her instructor can help repair his book.